RANTS

Sunday, March 19, 2006

yesterday,
went out with my mom to my grandmother house and to the temple.ate abit at my grandmother house then went to city hall to meet my friends.the MRT ride to city hall was damn long la.fell asleep.hahaha.met my friends,then went to have our dinner at marina square at yoshi.then went for abit of shopping.shopped at top shop,they were looking at binkis,hahaha.i and elvis didnt want to join them so we sat down somewhere in the shop.chatted,looked at guy stuff which were more interesting.hahaha.then went to the riverside at esplande.the view was damn nice.took pics,laughed and chatted.then went to cafe,sat down.read magazines.then elvis and i had to go home.so yup.trained home.thanx guys!i had a great time:)was in the bus,kwai called,ask me whether i was free.so,went out with kwai and mins,had to go to jinling house to save her,hahaha,then cab down to jalan kayu.ate prata.then cab down to near compass,went to a nearby playground and sat there.jinling was talkin to kwai,i was talkin to mins.after chattin,went to buy ice cream with kwai.chat till jinling had to go home so we all went home.cab home,reached home at about 2 AMplus.bathed,fell asleep.

half way through,when i was talking to mins,we talked about her.i told mins i really wanna know why was she doing this to me.why cant we even be friends.why all these things have to happen to me.why am i not even myself anymore.why i dont even know who am i anymore.and mins said:so what if you knew what you wanted to know.would it make a difference?sometimes,knowing things even more might just hurt even more.and smoking wont solve problems.
after talking to niang,i realise,its really time to move on.its time to let go.its time to TRY even its hard.even though i dont have answers to my questions,its alright.i can still move on:)though she have left me,i have beautiful memories that will always be kept deep inside my heart:)and i will learn to let go of her,cause i love her.and i am not going to make myself suffer anymore.not anymore. i am going to be a more stronger and a more independent person:)
THANX NIANG!I LOVE YOU:)

to claud:pls la.your directions not clear de lor.hahaha.and i damn lazy to my maths.i dont want to do la!LOL.
to kwai:you are welcome,thanx for the cirgs and supper.do take care,cheer up alrights.grandson will always be there for you,hugs:)
to atiqa:i have deleted the post already.

I learn to let you go,

because i love you so much